you've gotta add some personality to your life.
some quirks.
a little... how do you say....je ne sais quois.
I want to be a pirate, I think, when I grow up.
which, of course, though I'm 24, hasn't happened yet, as you can plainly see.
I think that would add plenty of mystery to my life.
Did you know being in love is like...
is like...
well, it's like losing your train of thought all the time
but not ever caring because you're so enchanted by the beautiful flowers stuck underneath the train tracks that your thoughts just race away without you ever noticing they're gone.
breath of fresh air. smell of fresh roses. freshly cut grass.
love is everything good, in every single way.
the way to help you understand that, not only can someone love you
but also, our Heavenly Father loves you... loves me.
it's just a special thing, dont' you think?
~*i love you from your toes to your face~*
Friday, October 7, 2011
Thursday, September 15, 2011
*by small and simple things*
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEfg-Z-TOc8
I watched this video today, and it really touched me.
to just think of how many small and simple things.... I appreciate in my life.
Alma 37:6-7 talks about small and simple things -
Alma tells his son, Helaman, about the scriptural records, about why we have them, and a little bit about the rich history of the ancestors who these scriptures are about.
And then, the age old line: "now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me, but..."
let me rephrase:
"I know you think I'm old and I don't know anything, but...."
"you know, I know you don't put much stock in the things I'm saying, but.."
Children thinking their parents are foolish is as old as ... well... dirt.
(but is he really being foolish? no way!! without people like him, we would be missing out on precious books of scripture!)
but then, he explains this simple truth:
"But behold I say unto you, by small and simple things are great things brought to pass."
sometimes, nothing I ever possibly do ever seems to be enough.
I want to do so much for the world, so much for my life, and it just feels like I'm taking these tiny baby steps that are getting me nowhere, and then, just like a baby, falling on my bum alot more often than I'd like.
Today,I thought about all the "flecks of gold" in my life.
My sister is definitely one. she has a fantastic, strong spirit.
my mom and daddy are two....
ah. I love my little family.
I have sweet friends who I can talk to, who I can tell anything to.
I'm in love.
I have the kids I used to babysit... today I went over there, and when Chloe woke up from her nap, she came right over to me and held her arms up so I could hold her.
That felt special. It made me smile. It made my heart joyful.
I should've been studying today but... I went and hung out with Jess.
and her baby daughter Josie... Josie is a happy baby. that made me smile. she sings loud in public.... I love happy children. no matter how loud they are =)
I have alot to be grateful for.
And you know, all I can do is my best.
baby steps, small and simple things, flecks of gold, whatever you wanna call it...
life is just.
so.
wonderful.
"small means doth confound the wise"
I watched this video today, and it really touched me.
to just think of how many small and simple things.... I appreciate in my life.
Alma 37:6-7 talks about small and simple things -
Alma tells his son, Helaman, about the scriptural records, about why we have them, and a little bit about the rich history of the ancestors who these scriptures are about.
And then, the age old line: "now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me, but..."
let me rephrase:
"I know you think I'm old and I don't know anything, but...."
"you know, I know you don't put much stock in the things I'm saying, but.."
Children thinking their parents are foolish is as old as ... well... dirt.
(but is he really being foolish? no way!! without people like him, we would be missing out on precious books of scripture!)
but then, he explains this simple truth:
"But behold I say unto you, by small and simple things are great things brought to pass."
sometimes, nothing I ever possibly do ever seems to be enough.
I want to do so much for the world, so much for my life, and it just feels like I'm taking these tiny baby steps that are getting me nowhere, and then, just like a baby, falling on my bum alot more often than I'd like.
Today,I thought about all the "flecks of gold" in my life.
My sister is definitely one. she has a fantastic, strong spirit.
my mom and daddy are two....
ah. I love my little family.
I have sweet friends who I can talk to, who I can tell anything to.
I'm in love.
I have the kids I used to babysit... today I went over there, and when Chloe woke up from her nap, she came right over to me and held her arms up so I could hold her.
That felt special. It made me smile. It made my heart joyful.
I should've been studying today but... I went and hung out with Jess.
and her baby daughter Josie... Josie is a happy baby. that made me smile. she sings loud in public.... I love happy children. no matter how loud they are =)
I have alot to be grateful for.
And you know, all I can do is my best.
baby steps, small and simple things, flecks of gold, whatever you wanna call it...
life is just.
so.
wonderful.
"small means doth confound the wise"
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
All I can say....
I had alot to say, just now but.... I lost it.
My heart was all full but I went to go say my prayers and.... it overflowed.
So I think I got it all off my chest.
I miss my friends. I have best friends and .... they've all moved on.
and here I am, nowhere.
I have miracles today. I'm trying to think of some.
sometimes, it's a little miracle that I can still genuinely smile when it's like, 10:15, I'm still at work, and I have to be nice to people.
I miss you. I miss watching stars. I miss random accents. I miss all night parties. I miss waking up late, and going to bed early.... and by early, I mean, the early hours of the morning. I miss superawkwardrandominsidejokes, I miss your freaking loud laugh that you somehow picked up from me after wayyyy too much time with me, I miss talking all night on the phone, I miss your hugs, I miss your smile, I miss the way... ah. I'm going to stop there.
I'm learning from myself all the time ... trying to learn to take my own advice.
whenever I go through hard things I think to myself, "Self. if you can just take this hard time, and turn it into something good, it will go away. If life weren't hard, you would never grow." it's easy to say but a whole lot harder to actually do. ah.
Today at work, I watched this kid, probably about 14 or 15 months old, just run away from his parents. and I watched two men - dad and grandpa, i think - run after him - and they were running, cuz this kid could move. As annoying as that might be for the parents..... I couldn't help but laugh. And think to myself... "I want a baby." haha... and then I snapped out of it. babies are hard work, and I need a man to help me raise it, so ... I think I can wait. but they're cute =)
I will wake up tomorrow.
It will be a new day.
I'll have a new set of things to do.
Things will be okay.
if I can just take it slowly.
day by day, hour by hour.
just think happy thoughts.
*I'll always be there when you wake*
My heart was all full but I went to go say my prayers and.... it overflowed.
So I think I got it all off my chest.
I miss my friends. I have best friends and .... they've all moved on.
and here I am, nowhere.
I have miracles today. I'm trying to think of some.
sometimes, it's a little miracle that I can still genuinely smile when it's like, 10:15, I'm still at work, and I have to be nice to people.
I miss you. I miss watching stars. I miss random accents. I miss all night parties. I miss waking up late, and going to bed early.... and by early, I mean, the early hours of the morning. I miss superawkwardrandominsidejokes, I miss your freaking loud laugh that you somehow picked up from me after wayyyy too much time with me, I miss talking all night on the phone, I miss your hugs, I miss your smile, I miss the way... ah. I'm going to stop there.
I'm learning from myself all the time ... trying to learn to take my own advice.
whenever I go through hard things I think to myself, "Self. if you can just take this hard time, and turn it into something good, it will go away. If life weren't hard, you would never grow." it's easy to say but a whole lot harder to actually do. ah.
Today at work, I watched this kid, probably about 14 or 15 months old, just run away from his parents. and I watched two men - dad and grandpa, i think - run after him - and they were running, cuz this kid could move. As annoying as that might be for the parents..... I couldn't help but laugh. And think to myself... "I want a baby." haha... and then I snapped out of it. babies are hard work, and I need a man to help me raise it, so ... I think I can wait. but they're cute =)
I will wake up tomorrow.
It will be a new day.
I'll have a new set of things to do.
Things will be okay.
if I can just take it slowly.
day by day, hour by hour.
just think happy thoughts.
*I'll always be there when you wake*
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Two and a half hours.
That's how long it took me to get these kids to bed tonight.
we started at about 7 and it is now almost 10 and they have just barely fallen asleep.
I'm... wow.
I mean, who'd have ever thought it'd be this much work?
you put them down, they get up. you firmly state that if they don't stay in bed you are going to scream, and there's this evil insane little laugh that follows a statement like that.
Savannah pushes Chloe down. Zach is running around naked. Griffin is calling Dylan names. Griffin and Dylan commence pillow fighting. Dylan gets hurt and starts to sob because Griffin landed on his "stubbed thumb". Chloe decides to start screaming. when I ask her why, she starts to laugh. Zach is still unclothed. he throws the trash bag at me and it splits open. Griffin puts chewed up fruit snacks in Dylan's hair. the list goes on.... you get the picture.
4 of them did sit out in the hall and read scriptures with me today though. I loved it, we read Alma 26. I think they didn't really understand it too much, but it was nice to read with them. it felt nice. then we came back in, and the chaos continues.
I'm just a baby sitter. but I do enjoy this.
However, I think i will now think twice before having 12 kids.... at least twice.
ooh, yesterday i went to the beach. i love the ocean. it's so tranquil, i could just sit there and stare and get lost in the beauty of it all. I feel so relaxed at the beach. Tomorrow is party time! it seems that summer is a never ending party.... seems a little shallow but i'm very excited.
welll... good night =)
we started at about 7 and it is now almost 10 and they have just barely fallen asleep.
I'm... wow.
I mean, who'd have ever thought it'd be this much work?
you put them down, they get up. you firmly state that if they don't stay in bed you are going to scream, and there's this evil insane little laugh that follows a statement like that.
Savannah pushes Chloe down. Zach is running around naked. Griffin is calling Dylan names. Griffin and Dylan commence pillow fighting. Dylan gets hurt and starts to sob because Griffin landed on his "stubbed thumb". Chloe decides to start screaming. when I ask her why, she starts to laugh. Zach is still unclothed. he throws the trash bag at me and it splits open. Griffin puts chewed up fruit snacks in Dylan's hair. the list goes on.... you get the picture.
4 of them did sit out in the hall and read scriptures with me today though. I loved it, we read Alma 26. I think they didn't really understand it too much, but it was nice to read with them. it felt nice. then we came back in, and the chaos continues.
I'm just a baby sitter. but I do enjoy this.
However, I think i will now think twice before having 12 kids.... at least twice.
ooh, yesterday i went to the beach. i love the ocean. it's so tranquil, i could just sit there and stare and get lost in the beauty of it all. I feel so relaxed at the beach. Tomorrow is party time! it seems that summer is a never ending party.... seems a little shallow but i'm very excited.
welll... good night =)
Monday, June 6, 2011
ah. Serenity.
I'm sitting at work.
just sitting.
I didn't get here til later, so by the time I got here, the kids had just been put to bed.
Do you know how hard it is to get 5 kids in bed?
...not easy. try it sometime.
right now, they've been "put to bed" for about ... an hour and a half.
I can still hear them up there, laughing, talking, hitting things, occasionally arguing....
you know, if I were a good baby-sitter, I'd go up and say
"hey you kids! quiet down and go to sleep 'fore I throw ya all in the brig!!"
but secretly... I kind of enjoy listening to them.
There are times, I guess, when very little things that occur take on a very large meaning. I think I am at that point in my life.
I believe there's a scripture in the Book of Mormon about that -- "by small and simple things are great things brought to pass."
This is one of my "small and simple" moments.
where I just sit back
and bask in
and enjoy
all that life has to offer.
~*you can't take the sky from me~*
just sitting.
I didn't get here til later, so by the time I got here, the kids had just been put to bed.
Do you know how hard it is to get 5 kids in bed?
...not easy. try it sometime.
right now, they've been "put to bed" for about ... an hour and a half.
I can still hear them up there, laughing, talking, hitting things, occasionally arguing....
you know, if I were a good baby-sitter, I'd go up and say
"hey you kids! quiet down and go to sleep 'fore I throw ya all in the brig!!"
but secretly... I kind of enjoy listening to them.
There are times, I guess, when very little things that occur take on a very large meaning. I think I am at that point in my life.
I believe there's a scripture in the Book of Mormon about that -- "by small and simple things are great things brought to pass."
This is one of my "small and simple" moments.
where I just sit back
and bask in
and enjoy
all that life has to offer.
~*you can't take the sky from me~*
Monday, May 23, 2011
Nocturne...
I took a communications class once and learned about internal noise.
I have alot of that going on lately.
I was walking to class today, and just thinking and thinking.
About what I want to do, who I want to end up being.
a couple of weeks ago, someone told me that I needed to ask myself where I wanted to be in 5 years, and then just go for it.
I thought to myself, I do not want to be working shifts in a hospital in 5 years. Not that it's a bad thing, that just isn't where I see myself.
I love adventure. I want to have it. lots and lots of it! but... I can't really major in adventure.
I want to serve others, that is what I want. I want to put myself in a position where I can help others, where I can give them something that they don't have, and in turn, I get to meet people and make new friends and forge these rich new relationships.
I love where I'm working right now. It is, I think, one of the things that has inspired me to want to serve others. I feel, sometimes, like I am helping the kids I work with, like maybe I am doing something important.
I can't wait to stop feeling like... like a "wave of the sea, driven with the wind and tossed." That is how it is, this other life. It's just ... a bit unstable. I'm so grateful for the Rock that I'm trying so hard to stay anchored to =)
~*you've got to lose to know how to win~*
I have alot of that going on lately.
I was walking to class today, and just thinking and thinking.
About what I want to do, who I want to end up being.
a couple of weeks ago, someone told me that I needed to ask myself where I wanted to be in 5 years, and then just go for it.
I thought to myself, I do not want to be working shifts in a hospital in 5 years. Not that it's a bad thing, that just isn't where I see myself.
I love adventure. I want to have it. lots and lots of it! but... I can't really major in adventure.
I want to serve others, that is what I want. I want to put myself in a position where I can help others, where I can give them something that they don't have, and in turn, I get to meet people and make new friends and forge these rich new relationships.
I love where I'm working right now. It is, I think, one of the things that has inspired me to want to serve others. I feel, sometimes, like I am helping the kids I work with, like maybe I am doing something important.
I can't wait to stop feeling like... like a "wave of the sea, driven with the wind and tossed." That is how it is, this other life. It's just ... a bit unstable. I'm so grateful for the Rock that I'm trying so hard to stay anchored to =)
~*you've got to lose to know how to win~*
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Tonight.Tonight
It's interesting to go from a place where prayer solves every problem...
to a place where you feel like prayer can't solve any problems.
Even though my heart knows it really can,
my ... everything else.... screams out that that's just silly.
These are my obstacles, I should love them.
~*I know the heart of life is good~*
to a place where you feel like prayer can't solve any problems.
Even though my heart knows it really can,
my ... everything else.... screams out that that's just silly.
These are my obstacles, I should love them.
~*I know the heart of life is good~*
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