All I can say....

I had alot to say, just now but.... I lost it.
My heart was all full but I went to go say my prayers and.... it overflowed.
So I think I got it all off my chest.
I miss my friends. I have best friends and .... they've all moved on.
and here I am, nowhere.
I have miracles today. I'm trying to think of some.
sometimes, it's a little miracle that I can still genuinely smile when it's like, 10:15, I'm still at work, and I have to be nice to people.
I miss you. I miss watching stars. I miss random accents. I miss all night parties. I miss waking up late, and going to bed early.... and by early, I mean, the early hours of the morning. I miss superawkwardrandominsidejokes, I miss your freaking loud laugh that you somehow picked up from me after wayyyy too much time with me, I miss talking all night on the phone, I miss your hugs, I miss your smile, I miss the way... ah. I'm going to stop there.
I'm learning from myself all the time ... trying to learn to take my own advice.
whenever I go through hard things I think to myself, "Self. if you can just take this hard time, and turn it into something good, it will go away. If life weren't hard, you would never grow." it's easy to say but a whole lot harder to actually do. ah.
Today at work, I watched this kid, probably about 14 or 15 months old, just run away from his parents. and I watched two men - dad and grandpa, i think - run after him - and they were running, cuz this kid could move. As annoying as that might be for the parents..... I couldn't help but laugh. And think to myself... "I want a baby." haha... and then I snapped out of it. babies are hard work, and I need a man to help me raise it, so ... I think I can wait. but they're cute =)
I will wake up tomorrow.
It will be a new day.
I'll have a new set of things to do.
Things will be okay.
if I can just take it slowly.
day by day, hour by hour.
just think happy thoughts.

*I'll always be there when you wake*